~Purple Dreams~

I'm back

2011-09-16T08:50:00.001-07:00

Finally iPhone have this app. Now I'm ready to be back for blogging !

2011-02-05T06:50:00.000-08:00

How your Chinese New Year? I watched "HOMECOMING" on the Eve and "MR & MRS INCREDIBLE" on Chu 3.

Actually I don't want to watch Incredible one...but dardar was in the mood for movie so...Nearly fall asleep. On the positive side, I can proudly say that Singapore movie won Hong Kong movie hands down.

Putting aside Jack Neo scandal, I love love love his character as Karen Neo inside Homecoming. Thunbs up for ah niu character as well. You HAVE to watch their scene! It so damn sacastics and funny. Do you know that Thiery Henry is a chef in France? =P

Anyway, rabbit year is sooo not my year at all. Quarrel with my mom on the eve and I keep knocking into things. So many blue and black on my body now. With the suayness following me, I starting to get worried about my job interview this coming monday liao.

2011-02-02T20:54:00.000-08:00

It the year of RABBIT!

WISH EVERYONE HERE A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ;)

Will continue blogging again so stay tune. Meanwhile, leave comments or suggest ideas to me to blog on? Enjoy the weekend

2010-09-03T11:28:00.001-07:00

Shall I or shall I not update???

2010-07-10T13:40:00.000-07:00

Note, the pictures are not in order.

Just came back from a gathering with Alvin they all. Evi, fiance of Jason was in SIngapore over the weekend before flying back to Indonesia again on monday. So, we had a dinner to welcome her. This my first time meeting her~ The last time when she was in SG, both dardar and I were too busy to meet up with them....

Went for seafood at Chinese Garden, then we went back to Alvin house, wait for him to bathe and drank at the void deck. We played "bluff" using poker cards and surprisingly, Jason the guai guai know how to bluff people! Dardar was 3 times champion somemore...Hmmm, wonder how many times he bluff me then? But I wasn't too bad also. I won the final round~

Find out that long time never drink liao...and 1 cup of volka can knock me down! No way I going to bottoms up next time hahaha

Can't wait for EVi to come to SG and stay during October. We can have more gatherings like this then. =P

2010-06-12T07:47:00.000-07:00

The 2010 World Cup is finally here. =D

Can just imagine how happy my dardar is. With the world cup, I foresee myself eating lots of MacDonald for the following month. Haha, due to the increase of pricing by SIngtel and Starhub, I supported dardar's decision in boycotting their services.

So, I joined dardar at Poineer Mall MacDonald to watch Uruquay v.s France at 2.30am yesterday. Even though it was in the wee mornings, I roughly counted about 30 men there with their eyes glued to the LCD screen. Dardar and QY were one on them. Me? I just simply enjoyed my fries...

I am so free to blog now because dardar has ditched me for the past 3 hours by going down to Mac again with QY..while I stayed at home doing my FYP. I am looking forward to going down with him again to watch the match on England v.s USA. Fillet.O Fish later perhaps? Love the "ooooo" and "ahhh" whenever there is a goal attempt. =P

2010-06-07T07:52:00.000-07:00

2 silly pictures to entertain you all. =D

2010-06-05T01:23:00.000-07:00

Pondering very long whether to write this post or not...

Da sao once told me that it actually very easy to spend time with my boi. Just a simple breakfast with him is enough to make him happy. But I don't find it easy at all...

Called up my mom that day and told her I wana bring my boi out for breakfast. Her first response was "Huh....You want to come back home that early ar...". This was the response I get when I have not been home for about 2 weeks.

Her reason given after that was that Valerie will not take her nap with me around. I do admit that Valerie does not like to nap if she see me cos she want me to play with her. It sound very reasonable for my mom to say that right? That is before you understand that Valerie sleep in the living room. I have to stay in the living room too cos my mom don't like me going into the rooms. If only she let Valerie sleep in the room then all problems will be solve isn't?

Even before Val, she don't like me to go back home at all. She had rather meet me outside to eat or go shopping. I'm angry cos there nothing I can do about it. I'm sad cos that family for me.

I'm not daying that my mom is very bad or what but I just can't understand some of the things she do and how she think. No one really knows till they are in the family. Tried many times when I tried to tell people about me and my mom relationship but all just think it my fault. They don't know the stress. I should be nice to my mom..etc. Only till they become family like dardar and da sao then do they know how I feel. My worry now is that my boi will get influence by my mom.

I'm scared and tired of people intra-relationships cos of my mom. A simple "Let eat dinner together" can be interpretated into many meanings by her. She will think she must got underlying motives to eat dinner with me..That the kind of people she is...

That day she was telling me about how she scold my dad and my boi say whatever Ahma say is correct. So I replied him in English that he got a lot of opinions hor..My mom who cannot understand English immediately told my boi that I always side with my dad. EVen after I ask my boi to tell her what I just meant, she continue scolding me that I'm always helping my dad. I don't even understand what I did wrong.

Rather not go home now. This is better than facing rejection from your own beloved family.

Home is suppose to be a place where you wana return no matter how tired or how unhappy you are. Home is suppose to make you feel safe and have a sense of belongings. So why does people like to quarral and nag at their children or partner when they are finally home?

Facing a lot of difficulties and stress in life but seems like no one is able to understand. What the use of saying when people cannot see your point of view? That only made you more frustrated. All I can do is only to suffer in silent and taste the sourness in my mouth.

2010-05-28T09:15:00.000-07:00

Opps! This batch of pics should have be uploaded like 3 weeks ago~ This just show how busy/lazy I am. Hehe

Went dating with dardar the whole day at Bugis. Really really can spend whole day there sia...Bugis Junction, the street pasa malam and Illuma. We ate fish and co for dinner, went to the lan shop and catch Ipman 2 there. There no time, if not we will go eat the BBQ steamboat.

The pink top is what I get at Illuma for only 10 bucks. Now with GSS, am sooo tempted to go shopping again~

These few days are more tired. Feel like there political and biasness everywhere. SO sick of human beings. Well, what else is there for us to do? =D

2010-05-12T01:48:00.000-07:00

K...was quite piss off...haha, what with the hot weather and all that. (Tons of things on my to do list!)

Have not done my 3 FYP log and it still accumulating, not yet study for 3 UTs, not yet settle for Taiwan trip, not yet do my laundry and have not bathe! Hahha, smelly smelly me. And oh ya..tons of pictures waiting to be uploaded onto my blog. =P

So many things not yet done and I spend one hour yesterday sitting at the clinic doing nothing just to wait to see a doctor. Well, I finally got my medicine...

RP having graduation ceremony this 3 days...Should be me wearing the gown too..Haiz

Mood now: Cravings for ramen...specifically, is volcano ramen of Ajisan. Hehe

Yesterday met a stupid emo mad guy. Was queueing up at the POSB atm machine outside Causeway point when a plastic bag full of drinks and snacks was throw in my direction. I was like

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The guy that threw the stuff lower his head into his arms after everyone looked at him. No balls or just wanted to act emo?? The cheesrios were all over the floor sia...Lucky I siam out of the path...so nothing was on me. The guy next to me wanted to confront him sia..Haha, I just mind my business..meaning, I walk away cos I was in a hurry to go home and..... SLEEP.

Missing my Valerie now..She learning how to walk now!!! Hahaha, loves the way she smile at me with her dimples. Next month going to be her birthday and Taiwan trip~ Huray..the time actually pass quite fast ar

2010-04-23T11:35:00.000-07:00

I have conquered Bt Timah Nature Reservior today~

Photos will be posted after I get it from my friend hehehe

2010-04-22T05:33:00.000-07:00

As usual, I get all A for all my lesson one but the pressure is building up again. Haiz...

School work is easy for me and I absolutely had no problem with it. The only problem I have is stepping out of the house. Every time when I had to go out, I can't seem to find any clothes that will look good on me. I will find myself fat and ugly. People will stare at me cos I'm so weird. Hence...I will just stare at my clothes in a daze and either giving in or resist the urge to just stay at home for good.

Or another senerio, like today, will be I'm so nervous till my tummy cramp. Funny enough, once I made the decision to stay at home instead of going to school, my tummy at once get better and can even take breakfast. Miracle???

I just can't make the effort to talk to people. I think even dardar find me too anti-social at times. Nowsdays, other than dardar, I find it so hard to socialise and tak with other people. These include my boi and my parent.

Lucky it finally my last semester. Just wana get it over and done with. =)

2010-04-16T18:54:00.000-07:00

Okay..I look so tired from the pictures..Haha

School has started once again for me. 3 modules plus 1 FYP for me.

I get the modules I want from SIT but Envionmental education for my last elective? Oh, kill me please...he faci is a boring old man with no humour at all. Next friday, we are going to hit the road of Bt Timah Trail. That soooo not me.

Well, but only left 63 days to my Taiwan trip and I can't afford to miss any lesson if I wanted to go on the trip...Jiayou! Haiz.you may ask why I planned the trip on my school days..This is to accomodate my boi and dardar holidays lor..So I only have myself to scrafice.

There are so many things I want to do/buy but financial is always an issues. I'm so jealous of those famous bloggers who are already so chio and get sponsors to make them even more chio. Eg: clothes, makeup and hair styling. Why is it that pretty people wil be more pretty while ugly people will only get uglier and people think that they deserve it?

I want lots and lots of money! =P

2010-04-07T18:38:00.000-07:00

To think I tease dardar last time about having flu during such hot weather in Singapore.

Serve me right cos now I having flu cos of the 2pid weather also...

Sore throat the day before and now company with cough. Can't eat anything as I well threw it up again. Hmm...nice timing for losing weight? =p

Paisei to Yuqi as he message me so many times during his off days but I can't make it..=(

2010-04-02T22:14:00.000-07:00

Watched Clash of the Titans on April Fool Day with my boi and dar.

With similar storyline, I much prefered Percy Jackson The Lighting thief. It was much more lighthearted and entertaining.

Funny enough, in both movies, they killed Medusa. You know, the woman with snakes as hair and can turn man into stones when they looked into their eyes. So, my boi asked me who actually killed Medusa??? Lol!

2010-03-31T06:23:00.000-07:00

A nervous wreck...That me.

2010-03-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

Finished watching Shutter Island by Leo Dicaprio. Not bad, give 4 out of 5 stars. The storyline started off with Leo Dicaprio as an officer, on board of a ship with his newly met partner to Shutter Island. They were there to investigate on a missing patient in the mental hospital operating on that small little island.

Love the little twist that the storyline took in the end.

This coming week, bf having his small little holiday. Gona let him company me? But think he too addicted to Blackshot already. Anyway, for the next 3 wednesdays, I'm gona reserve it for my boi medical appointment.

My last sem result is out. Overall, quite happy with it. Hees...better than the previous sem. Glad that my FYP got B+~ Down to see that my peers are all graduating while I still got one more sem to go...That life I guess...Can't have everything you want being serve to you on a plate. If I was given the chance again, I will still consider taking that break cos I need it so much at that time.

Busy with preparing for the Taiwan trip as well.

*BIg Big SMILE*

Settle on the date in June and booked SQ tix for it~ Can't wait to bring my parent and my boi around in Taiwan. It their first trip overseas! Excited excited~~~

2010-03-23T11:36:00.000-07:00

OWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

I'm totally mad in love with this korean guy now!!! Love him love him love him! Can any kind soul deliver him to my doorstep pleasE? Love his bad boi grin soooooo much. I want to kiss him on his bad boi lips lar~

2010-03-23T00:37:00.000-07:00

Rise and shine on Sunday morning to bring my boi go to the ZOO! Well, I'm not really a morning person but anything to make my boi happy. =D

We have MAC's breakfast deluxe at Causeway Point! My all time favourite breakfast~

Took bus 926 to the zoo from the woodland interchage. Tsk tsk, buses at woodland interchange always took so long to come. We waited about 15 minutes for it.

This is taken outside the zoo. I love this picture. Thinking of printing it out and put inside the photo frame.

Me and the white tiger..Haha, just nice that this year is tiger year, MINE year~

Spot the little creature behind the trees...Sooo cute!

I must admit that halfway through the zoo, I'm feeling tired and bored already..I'm just not suitable for natural environment. Hot and sticky and got bites all over me..>.<

Spent 1 hour at the kid worldz for my boi to play around. This is call river crossing which require you to pull the rope. I think the little gal inside this picture looked nice in bikini. Nicer than me I think..Very good fashion sense. =P

Just ignore this picture..Haha, I'm acting cute only

Forgot where we heading liao but so this is how I look like from behind...Hmm...I think my behind look nicer than my front. LOL. I look like a auntie carrying a plastic bag but that my boi wet clothes from playing at the kid worldz..

The toad is looking at you~ It a GIGANTIC TOAD! Very big orh..The way it keep staring at us is quite creepy...

No animals but can you see the spider web at the top of the picture? It very beautiful that I can't help but snap a pic of it.

I have a feeling this creature is of the female species...Don't ask me why but I just think she a very pretty girl.

Butterfly butterfly fly fly fly~

Eekk....

DOUBLE EEkkk....I hate snakes!

We went for the boat ride on the Seletar reservior. One of the tourists on board ask me am I from China..Haiz...I look like from China meh?

Our stop was at the Polar bear. Overheard the auntie sitting behind me saying the polar bear is so huge and heavy but he can swim so well..Soooooo, I can't help but wondering why am I lighter than the bear by so much yet I can't swim??

When I see the giraffe, I think of Emem~

The trip took longer than I expected..Spent total of 5 freaking hours inside the zoo. My boi told me at the end of the trip that he wanted to be a zookeeper next time. *Smile*..What a cute little ambition.

2010-02-26T19:21:00.001-08:00

I hate the taste of disappointment...

2010-02-09T08:07:00.000-08:00

SIck during UT week and before CNY.

Why, Oh WHY???

CNY is so boring..Should I stay at home and wait for dardar or should I jalan jalan outside while waiting for him?

Wish I can work during CNY. Got money and can kill time somemore.

Gota go...The stupid flu is making me so sleepy. Tomorow must wake up and study sports law!

2010-01-29T04:06:00.000-08:00

Wah..I don't know what to say.

I am playing this King of Kungfu game in facebook. And I just capture Darius as my assistant yesterday. This can be done only when you both are friends. Today when I log in, KOK wrote that assistant voided as I not friends with Darius.

???

He delete me from his facebook account just because he don't want to be my assistant?

Seriously duno what to think..Feel funny and upset at his behaviour at the same time.

2010-01-28T03:09:00.001-08:00

I'm feeling better. =)

Don't know why, I woke up feeling very "high" today. Think I am super hyperactive and talktative in school today. Feel like chit chatting non stop. Hahaha, if only I got this kind of energy everyday~

2 more weeks to holiday! So looking forward to it. Looking for part time job. Anyone any intro?

Nice mood bring me nice experience today. "wink wink"

The new faci was not as bad as I though..Hmm...May considering going to her lesson again next week.

Tomorrow going dating with dardar~ Then sunday help Jason pick valentine gifts for Evi. I quite enjoying myself now. Such a big difference from yesterday.

2010-01-22T05:25:00.000-08:00

I think I finally lost it on wednesday...

Force myself to go school that morning. Guess everything was too much for me then. After 3 years of controling myself, I had to have that damn panic attack in school. Wonder what would my classmates think of me.

Got once, the second time is bound to follow. I so scare to go to school now. Damn, when can my misery end?

So damn noisy

2010-01-16T10:07:00.000-08:00

Now drinking red wine and eating smoked salomon while doing my FYP at the same time. A bit drunk...wahahaha

Dardar try his first mouth of smoked salmon and immediately declare that he don't like it so I have got the whole packet to myself~

2010-01-13T08:54:00.000-08:00

Missing dardar..Can't sleep well these 2 days knowing that he is not by my side. Dardar even more funy..He describe his journey to the airport is like Sun WuKong travelling to the west.

Without dardar, everything seem so blue...

2010-01-11T08:53:00.000-08:00

Very sian to go to school. Last time, I get burnout thus defer for a semester to get some rest. Now the SAME thing happening again.

FYP - Final date of submision is next monday yet my teammate have not send me the data. Where got time to edit if my first drat is not good enough? I call him and message him for more than one whole week already. He always tell me he assure me that he will give it to me by today. Feel like such a fool for believing him. Till NOW, I still don't have the damn data to finish my report.

Lesson - The best thing my classmates will tell me is "You are a A student ma~" SO, that means they can push everything for me to do without feeling guilty. They can go for smoking break while I don't even have time to eat my lunch. Give them a subject to research on..they tell me to help them look for case studies. WHAT? Machiam like I don't have my own subjects to research on like that. If present everything nice nice for you, then I may as well finish up your work for you?

It okay if you are willing to learn and approach me for help. But, you don't read the resources given to you and you expect me to sum up everything then explain to you, isn't a bit too much? Even if I explain, they also don't get it. No matter how hard I try to explain. Explain so many times already, he told me wait for other to come back then do together..Ya..when the "others" come back, we only left 10 minutes before presentation. How to do quality work? Best thing is, they ask me send the resources to them when they can just download from the school website. HELLO?? I your maid or what? Just a few clicks won't hurt your little finger lor.

Everytme I go to school, I spend HOURS sitting in front of my lappie doing the work. Eat, also eat in front of my lappie. I going crazy lor. How not to get burnout like that? SOmetimes do till I want to cry. One of my faci even commented that we do not have in depth research. One person doing 4 other people work and need to complete in 2 hours time. How to have in depth research?

Skipped school for 3 days already. Damn afraid to go school. I not superwoman...Please don't push everything for me to do can or not...

Dardar on attachment to airport. From tomorrow onwards, he will be doing 12 hours shift for 4 days per week. I gona miss him like crazy..Less and less time to company me already. Won't be seeing dardar for wednesday the whole day at all.. Just think about it made me sad. I can't look for him when my mood is down and want to cry..Will be so looking forward to meet him again on thursday.

2009-12-30T23:48:00.000-08:00

HAIZ.........Why do I have a woodBlock boyfriend...

Zen say I chose him myself. That true, but sometimes will "cough out blood" cos of him.

When we first got together last time, I will drop hints to let him know what I like and what I want. He told me he cannot understand my hints. Okay lor...now I hint him till very straightforward yet he still do nothing also. Example example?

Hmm...observant friends of mine should know what I put on my MSN right? The thingie of my wish before 2009 ends. My woodblock also got saw that and what did he do? He is now still sleeping on new year eve. Now girls, do I have a right to be angry with him? The more i think about it, the more pek chey i become.

We were suppose to go and eat buffet on monday one but cos he wanted to meet his friend, I agree to change plan. Then in the end? His friend did not even turn up. Can tell you I am very angry.

What should I do...talk to my bf already also no use. Change bf ar? Arrgg...woodblock! Together with him 5 years already still dont know what I like and dislike.

2009-12-23T01:36:00.000-08:00

Love this picture of mine. Haha, very 自恋 hor? This is currently my MSN display picture and even my ex-bf say it nice. Hehehe, hope he regret losing me. @.@

Thanks to lala, now I'm hook to the Korean drama <妻子的诱惑> lar! Watch till don't want to sleep or do report. Hhahahaa, think guys won;t be interested in the plot but gals, this is a very addicting drama! EmEm, you should go and watch~

2009-12-23T01:11:00.000-08:00

In a bad mood from yesterday night till now. Feeling more sad than angry actually. I can't understand why is it so hard to make a phone call? If you are really sincere, then by making a phone call is hardly a big obstacle, isn't? This just show how sincere you are. The more explanation and excuses you came up with, the more sad I am. I had grow older but things does not seem to change at all. All I can do is to adjust my mindset...

AND no, the above paragraph is not about my boyfriend. Although he did make me angry a few days ago cos of a particular gal. I can accept friendship but why must this gal always sms him in the middle of the night? It seems to me that she had already cross the line of friendship. Call me green eye monster or whatever you like but I just don't like it. I refuse to speak to him for 2 days. And guess what he did? He go and buy me flowers. >.<~

Haiz...I told him I like the bouquet but I don't like the flowers inside. Cos flowers will wilt and I have to throw them away in the end. I want something which I can preserve INSIDE the bouquet. Hope he get my hint of what I want actually??

On to happier things~ Went back to school for FYP meeting just now and Hilario mention something that make me want to laugh. He said that he heard rumours that I am dating one of the guys in the FYP team. Hahhhaha, how can that be...Although they are all quite good looking, but they all have their girlfriend already. SO, nothing like that will happen. =P

To be honest, when I first got into poly, I imagined that there will be chances of me together with another guy in the school. Now, that will be motivation for me to go school right? =P Imagine having breakfast on your seat every morning, bought by your boyfriend. How sweet is that...Haha but now, I know it imposible, The impression which I gave people in school is smart and hard to get close. Think no guy will want a gal like that~~

Anyway, after the meeting, rushed back to JP and watch Storm Warriors with dardar. It not as bad as what my friends say leh..Quite enjoy the show. I was really impressed by the special effect and their moves. But one thing for sure...the plot sux. I burst out laughing whenever they said something in the movie. =D

This is the bouquet of flowers which dardar gave me~ This is like after one year since he last gave me flowers...

On my dad's van. If you actually enlarge the pictures, you can see blood stains on my elbow. Fell down and hurt myself =*(

2009-12-20T00:47:00.001-08:00

This post is for lala~ She wanted to see me in my "formal" wear. Hahaha, anyway, i had a presentation last tuesday so this is what I wore. Result not out yet but hope I will pass...Hmm, last minutes went shopping at Jurong Point and total spend $80 on the whole thing. I don't like the blouse but I love love love the skirt~! Made me feel so femine the whole day. =p

Wana get more of it but no idea what kind of top goes well with it. Hehehe. So lala, tuck in or tuck out look nicer?

Zong jiu jie

2009-10-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

NOT HAPPY LOR~

Today is Autumn Festival yet I got no lantern, no mooncake, no chance to play with candles and now I can't even see the bloody moon from my window. =*(

What Autumn Festival is this ma...

2009-09-22T08:48:00.000-07:00

2009-08-12T09:00:00.000-07:00

I'm eating potato chips out of a plate with a spoon. =P

2009-06-28T04:01:00.000-07:00

I have been serve the Leave of Absence (LOA) by RP.

Don't know should be happy or what. Haha...At least feel more relax now that I can at least learn at home instead of going to school.

Got excuse not to go out. But I miss my boi and Valerie.

2009-06-23T20:21:00.000-07:00

Now still very dazed as I just woke up after taking the sleeping pill. Wana record down my dream and the feeling I had before it disappear.

Had many many dreams...But this one made me feel calm and safe in it.

Wanted to go to my grandma house with the devil. I suggested the bus instead of the usual MRT. The bus was late. The devil became angry and took a cab. He pushed the driver out of the cab and drove. In the cab, I was so scared that he going to beat me. I kept asking him is he angry with me. Then, I cried.

Next thing I knew, I was alone in the house. Feel so lonely so I ran out of the house. He was there waiting for me. As usual, he started asking me lots of questions which I find very irrataing. I refused to answer. I ignored him and looked at the scene outside the window as he drove up the highway.

I remembered looking at the sun and thinking it looked like a juicy strawberry. Then I fall asleep. He woke me up with his laughter. He said he found me sound asleep when I had a miss call from my phone. I called back and it was from my mom. Instead of scolding me going out in the middle of the night, she comforted me and trusted me with him.

I looked at the sun again when the call ended. The sunrise now looked so beautiful. I feel so peaceful. He look at me again and ask whether I want him to send me back. I nod my head. I told him I don't want to stay at the house anymore. I don't want to go back and can he drove me to a hotel. I was happy and he was happy also. No more tension between us and he promised me no more frustrating questions anymore. Instead, he will take me go eat and window shopping.

There was little car on the highway...He drove near the edge and there was a sea below. He let me lower down the window and I breathe in the air. It smelled so good also. It been a long long time since I smelled the air from the sea. There was even sea lion below. Hundreds and thousands of them, swimming and playing...

Quarreled with dardar yesterday evening..I was very unhappy with him. Can't deny the fact that it was partly my fault too s I was in a very bad mood.

Find dardar so naggy. Hate him repeating the same thing again and again. Especially hate him mumbling to himself.

Very unromantic. Sometimes feel like days with him are just like plain water. Romantic here does not need always means spending alot of money. A poem that he wrote himself of how he feel about me, by cooking my favourite dishes for me and giving me some sweet comments in my facebook or friendster is enough to make me smile liao. I tol him about the comment thingie before..Yup, he got do it. For a while only. Romantic for a certain period only??

Very insensitive. Got few times recently when I'm out with his friends. I was walking behind all of them. He never noticed. It was his friend that found me looking sad and company me to walk in the end and offered to help with my bags. His duties as a boyfriend??

Hate how he restrcted my dressing. This one cannot, that one cannot. Even clothes that my mom approve, he say cannot. I already dress like that when he met me. Now he wanted to change me.

I feel so miserable now. The quarrel and studies are the trigger. It made me cry for no reason and hurting myself is of no use anymore. My chest feel so pain that sometimes I wish I have the courage to stab it with a knift. I can't breathe at all..People see me as happy go lucky. Of course, because I don't step out of the house when I feeling like this. So how can u all understand how I feel when you can't see the state I'm in?

2009-06-21T07:32:00.000-07:00

http://www.affordable-loves.blogspot.com/

NICE??? It cost only 30 SGD~ I want it soooooo much orh. But dardar say NO. Haiz..There no way he will allow me to wear it out lor. So lao kock kock mindset. But i really want a corset very much. If I break up with him one day, I sure go and buy corset and all the sexy wear I can find. =X

Just like how Nicole Kidman start wearing high heels again after Tom Cruise. Haahaha

Hmm, school have started liao. 9 more weeks to holidays again. Feel so long long away...

Run to korkor house almost after school every day. The baby is always sleeping..Like me. Hahaha, my aunt they all say she look like me. Even her lifestyle is like me lor. Sleep during the day and play at night. Love her smile, she look so cute when she smile. Can't wait for her to grow older then can play with me.

Cooked for dardar yesterday. My chicken and prawn taste nice. Think I master it liao? Black bean sauce chicken and sweet and sour prawn...But I lost 10 bucks of lunch money on MJ..Haiz..No money eat liao.

Dardar going to start school soon lor..Very scare. Scare he got no time for me and scare he got new gf, new target in class. This happen everytime he switch to new environment. Lucky he asure me again and again that that will not happen.

Love eating Japan and Korean food these few weeks. Korean BBQ chicken~ Even able to accept the Kimchi that I soo hate in the past. Anyone know where got nice BBQ? Arrg, hungry again. LOL

2009-06-13T02:13:00.000-07:00

Princess Valerie Ong~

Swee hor? =D

Went kor's house at 1 p.m. Baby take after me orh..Sleep all the way while I was there. Even refusing to wake up and drink her milk. *SMACK SMACK*

We tickle her, move her limbs around and make a lot of noise also can't wake her up. She can even sleep in a sitting position.>.<~

Must wait till few more months old then that the best time to play with her. Hehehe

Her skin is so soft and tender!!! Feel like biting her cheek.

2009-06-11T15:47:00.000-07:00

My kor is a FATHER liao!!!

My da sao is a MOTHER liao!!!

Little princess finally arrived on 10 June 2009.

Went to Thomson Medical Centre and visit my kor's family yesterday. Wao kao...2 visitiors only at a time so waiting time is like damn long. Lucky my da sao and princess going home today liao.

Just arrive in the ward only and heard princess crying loudly. Oh dear..her cries are very sharp...Kept on crying no matter how we try to pacify her. I just carry her for not longer than one minute only then my mom wana take over liao.

ZZZzzz...Think my boi jealous cos my mom is so excited about the little new born.

2009-06-07T06:41:00.000-07:00

Noti noti gal..Made me wait sooo long.

Going to smack your little butt when you come out.

=D

2009-06-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

Feeling very sian. Can't go out cos of dardar's swollen's ankle.

I wana go out cos of GSS...Sale leh...

I want to stop thinking of it..Even for one day

Why do you have to do that?

You are just pushing me away from you

Sighz...

2009-06-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

I won a SPECIAL PRIZE at Yuqi's chalet!!! SO happy...

This is my special prize..Let see what inside shall we?? Hope it something special~~

WHAT THIS??! *SMACK Yuqi* =D

Hahaha, Went to Yuqi's enlistment chalet on friday, 5th of June. Me and Russell spoilt his plan orh..He wana play games at 4 pm then have buffet at 6 pm one. Guess what time we reach? 9+, going to 10pm!

I woke up at 3 pm by the way..Hahaha, suppose to meet Russell at 7.30pm in Bugis one but he made me wait wait wait till 8.15pm...Who say gals are the one who always late? We chit chat along the way and so happy that we actually manage to "siam" the games. From there, we took train to Bedok, went NTUC to buy some snacks and alcohol then take bus over. Lucky got Russell sia..If not I sure lost my way. Don't know where to alight, don't know where is the stupid underpass..

We were walking along the underpass when I made a joke on how everytime in Hong Kong horror show, there always a woman wearing red carrying a red umbrella in the underpass when suddenly Russell say don't look behind! He feel that there someone behind us. Then "CLANG"! A very loud stupid noise made me jump out of my skin.

A cyclist was behind us....

Made a huge roundabout to Block B of the Goldkist chalet. Quite nice orh, can smell the sea breeze and lots of people cycling. We went to the wrong house by the way..Haha, the Indians kept looking at us then ask who we looking for. Yuqi lar...change house also forgot to tell us. =P

Arrived only and we started eating. Hungry!! The buffet was okay but I especially liked the sweet and sour fishie. After eating, Yuqi prepared us for the games...Who say we manage to "siam" ar?

Some games like ice breakers and one of the game I enjoyed mos is the quiz on how well we understood Yuqi~ I got the second highest score. Hees..He my dear dear brother!

A lot of laughter that night. His friends are all very fun loving and some I consider them to be quite yan dao. Hahhaha, but dardar and Russell don't share my taste.

Wanted to stay overnight and played Mahjong one...but dardar don't allow. Haiz...How I prefer to be a single sometimes.

These are the presents that Yuqi prepared! Some very cool, some erm..very weird. Example like a Mcdonald toy inside a KFC box...

Playing Blackjack~

Yuqi and his biao jie marking on our "test paper"

These 2 guys are jokers!

Love love love his expression. Like "huh?! What is this dong dong?" Hahhaha

*wave*

He purposely don't look at the camera..

This is the picture of the day! I love this picture the most of all other pics.

The paper actually wrote "stupid"...

Hmm, Hmmm.....

Good Night~ Time to nightie nightie~

2009-06-06T00:39:00.001-07:00

The scene just keep replaying in my head.

2009-06-05T16:05:00.000-07:00

Just came back and bathe from Yuqi chalet. Tired...Leg very "suan" cos of all the walking.

Took lots of pictures! but some are very blur leh...Should I post it up?

Love Yuqi friends. All so fun loving. Had more fun than I expected in the first place!

Missing my dear brother now...wonder can he take the hardship in NS?

2009-06-03T12:10:00.000-07:00

Heart start to wavier again. What wrong again?

Internal or external influnences?

2009-06-01T07:00:00.000-07:00

Halo! I'm bacl to update~Warning: All pictures are not for the faint hearted cos all of my pictures are with no make-up on!

Oh my gosh...Look at my eye bag!!!

Last wednesday, dardar decided to go play street soccer with QY. Guess what happened when I saw him? He was limping...JH and me dragged him to go see Chinese doctor. His ankle swollen like a little tennis ball sia. He was so painful that he grabbed on to my hand while the doctor massage his feet. My eyes went red when I see him like that lor. Poor dardar...How to go for chalt like that??? But he still insist on going!!!

JH playing PSP and relaxing at the chalet resort. Hehhe, I took a snap shot of him half naked~

See how my boi and Jason look so serious playing Dynasty Warrior on PS2. Even a "mei nv" walked past also can't distract them lor.

This the view of the Wild Wild Wet from our room~

Devil Angel~

A pity that the day we went crashed with the Family Carnival Day. Crowed sia! Only played one of the ride. All the others queue are too long liao. I never swim, only played with water nie but still choke on water. So happy that JH came with us cos of dardar's ankle, he can't come at all. Feel secure cos JH is there to take care of s and everything. Hehe. We played the slide, the Tsunami and foam party~ JC keep asking me whether I got wear tankini or not...I never buy lar, wear my old black bikini but dardar insist I wear a half top outside. Both Jason and JH laugh when I complained that I first time see a gal wear a outer wear on top of her bikini. My dardar too conservative lar!

JH is the most hardworking one of all. He our nanny of the weekend~ Basically, he a one man show~ All of us just sit around doing nothing. LOL. Sit dardar sit there with his leg up while JH doing all the hard work.

The yummy food! The chicken look kind of disgusing thought. Hahahaha but the beef, hotdog and crabmeat taste very good~

The 3 chef.

This is the fish! I ate most of it on that night.

After my parent went back with my boi, we played mahjong ( my favourite past-time now!), drink Volka and XO, watched movies but I feel asleep half way. I was drunk sia! My face red red till like monkey's ass. Just remember I keep smiling like an idiot all the way. To think I only drank 2 glass only...

We slept till 10 am the next day and we got only like 15 minsutes to pack everything before we need to book out. Challenging task orh! JH still don't have enough fun and wanted to stay for one more night but expensive lor, extend must pay extra $125. Don't think it worth it at all. Agreed to take cab back instead with the money. Collapse on the bed for 6 whole hours before waking up again. Like throw money go torture myself orh...So tiring.

Now, having sore throat, flu and cough. During the weekend, I keep having gastric pain also. Pop Actal like it free like that...

Next day supposed to wake up at 7a.m to meet JH and dardar for breakfast at Chinatown. I can't wake up!!! Then we stay at dardar house eat KFC, played mahjong again. Punishment is art of cosmetics drawing on the face~~~~~

Arrg...kana draw till so ugly. Dardar lar, he the one responsible for my scar.

From the pictures above, can you guess who lost the most? Hehehe

2009-06-01T06:56:00.000-07:00

What is important is to keep learning, to enjoy challenge, and to tolerate ambiguity. In the end there are no certain answers." Discuss.

There is one question that I keep asking myself now and then. The big question is “What objectives are there to achieve when one is alive?”

We just keep on learning since the moment we were born. Learnt how to talk, learnt how to walk and learnt how to read. Then we got enrolled in primary school and go on to higher education academy to further our studies. In the past, the so called highest educational certificate during my parent’s generation is the O level certificate and now it had gone on to Diploma, Degree, P.H.D and Masters.

I hate studying. I wish that I could just have recreation fun whole day. But when I did that for a few years back, I find no meaning in life at all. Now, I learnt that while recreation could help to refresh your mind and body, learning could also be the same. The feeling when I understood something which I found it to be very difficult in the first place, could actually gave me the same feeling of like when an athlete conquer his first mountain.

Thus I think, humans are being designed by God to keep on learning and improving themselves. They enjoyed the challenges hence they would keep on finding the impossible and tried to solve them. The invention and come-about of magic cube, sukudo, 7 mysteries of the world could explain why they are such a favourite topics of human beings.

However, we are not the creator of the universal. We have to tolerate ambiguity when we set too high a challenge of ourselves which we could not solve or even find out. Just like people thought that planets revolve around earth very long ago and they were proven wrong. So why people know for sure that planets revolve around the sun now?

My own belief is that there are no only black and white but it consists of the grey colour as well. No one knows for certain to anything. People just want to believe in what they want to believe. Scientists believe in anything that are logical and can be explained with a theory or formula. But is the truth really that case or are we just trying to bluff ourselves in believing the easiest way out?

2009-05-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

Went back to Jurong Point's Chapter 2 and trim my hair.

This time round, SUPER DUPER DON"T LIKE MY NEW FRINGE.

It cut by the same guy leh. He in bad mood?

Dardar kept laughing at me say I look like BArbie doll. *cry cry*

I want my layer fringe back lar...

Spent 18 bucks to buy a mini hair straighter. Hahha, I lke got no use for it leh but I bought it anyway. Regret regret...It in pink by the way. One more collection to my PINKY series~

2009-05-16T07:05:00.000-07:00

Happy happy, got this comment from one of my faci .

The RJ you have submitted is one of the most beautiful piece of writing I have seen. Well done.

2009-05-13T01:31:00.000-07:00

Don't feel very well despite sleeping the whole day. Hot and cold. Weather or cos "da yi ma" is coming?

Having rashes all over. So itchy. SOooo itchy ar.......

Shall continue sleeping

2009-05-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

Today pon again simply cos I can't wake up~ Jialat orh..

Yesterday went to Clementi Sakura and celebrate Mother and Father day. So many people! All the salmon was gone..I only get to eat 3 pieces onli. lOVE LOVE LOVE BUFFET. Next time bring me go again k?

Busy studying, doing PPT and playing Resident EVil 5 with dardar.

New found interest is MAHJONG!!! Anyone wana jio me? But I play small small one..

Looking for tankini for my coming up chalet~

Playing with baby in June~

So many things in plan. LOL

2009-05-08T12:42:00.001-07:00

Finally friday~ Woo hoo...

*Silly Paddie dance around*

This week got make progress. Guai guai take medicine and even went to school for 3 days this week!

Today feel very happy cos got 4 people say I become slimmer and prettier liao~ 4 leh! Break the record liao. Could be cos start of school? Everyday busy busy busy like a bumble bee.

Tomorrow going down to Bugis collect my pay and shopping! Yes, my favourite past-times. Shall reward myself a bit. Hees~

Then going out with my family on Sunday. It mother day~ How are all of you going to celebrate?

2009-05-06T07:35:00.000-07:00

NUH on tuesday and security was tight!!! Can only enter from one entrance and there security guard at every exit. Must take temperature, wear mask and paste sticker. I look funny with the mask. It basically covered my whole face~ Is my face really that small? Hees!

Today back to school and security is the same also. Woa lao eh...abit sian orh. Lucky no need wear mask this time but must wear sticker and declear our temperature online. Think that it good that we are doing all the precautions but the atmosphere is making me so tense! See the round round orange sticker with RP logo on it?? I wore a jacket when I in class so when I go out to buy food, must take off the jacket to let the security see the sticker. Grr...

Think I look cute in this pic~ Eyes so small! HEheheh

2009-05-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

You Are the Bedroom

You are an indulgent person. You enjoy rest, relaxation, and pampering.

You know how to find peace in a crazy life. You are good at unplugging.

You tend to be very private. You don't let just anyone in.

You are also a romantic. When you have someone, you tend to be very couple oriented.

What Room of the House Are You?

TOTALLY CORRECTLY!!!

2009-04-29T18:08:00.000-07:00

ARRG..... SILLY ME!!!

My class start at 10 A.M and thought it start at 9.15 A.M. So I arrived early by more than 1 hour!!! Oh my gosh...

1 hour leh...what amI suppose to do? And I wondered why no one is in the class except me.

Stupid stupid stuuuuuuuuuuupid!

Nothing much these days but school, school and slacking around. Did not turn up for lesson the last 2 days. Lazy I think or the medicine not working liao? Psyco myself so much to turn up today. Sorry teammates..>.<~

Hmm...nothing wrong with school except the faci who taught the same module today as of last week, complain my shorts too short. Angry...So purposely wear a even shorter short and a spat top to school today. Childish I know but I feel good~

2009-04-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

Just saw Pierre and 陈宏宇 shooting at RP's entrance!!! Cool man~

Too bad I don't dare to take pictures..Scare get scold. =P

2009-04-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

Today is first day of school!!!

Feel nervous and the odd one out when I went to school.

BUT.....

Lucky that my teammates are quite fun. Hehe so overall NOT BAD!

Wish everyday can also be like this. =D

2009-04-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

A bit unhappy now.

Why is it that when your eyes never see it then the work being done is not due any credit?

The right things you did always go unnoticed yet you will always get scolded and get blamed for doing the wrong things.

Part of human's nature...

2009-04-18T20:26:00.001-07:00

Woke up from tummy cramp this morning at about 7 a.m. Hmm..doing some studyin now. Tomorrow going back to school le. I have been resting like half a year liao. Come to think of it, wah..that quite a long loooong time.

Must tune my thinking. Work now, have fun during the holidays. Reward myself if I am a good good gal. =)

Planning on a Taiwan trip next year with my family. My parent had never fly before..Really wana bring them to see the world outside. My dad loves the culture in Taiwan. So as I said, work now play later!

2009-04-16T23:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is my last day of work~ My bosses are nice but I'm really glad that I going back to school.

The work was fun before CNY where it soooo busy serving all the ladies shopping for new clothes. Guess the recession hit Singapore after that cos sales went downhill all the way...Sometimes, I can just sit in the shop reading for a few whole hours without doing anything one.

I prefer it to be busy leh. The boredom of doing nothing seriously can kill me. Think I will be turn off by retail work for the next few months ba.

One funny thing I notice is that gals are really such jealous and competitive creature. When the store got a few ladies browsing, those who walk past will naturally come in also. Funny right? It as if they don't want to miss out on what other people will get. Think it the same logic as Singaporeans love to queue when they see other people queueing.

2009-04-15T17:34:00.000-07:00

This was actually taken last week.

Stayed up whole night playing mahjong then out to go Pasir Ris to book the chalet. I lost~ So got to buy everyone breakfast. =(

JH really can eat alot!! Thought he still on diet? But okay lar cos he treat me to fudge cake at the end of the day also. Hehe, not just fudge cake orh but also the salmon at IKEA.

Hmm, first time wear my boot. Nice? I love it..Veri fashionable and comfy. What you think?

Anyway, we finally booked our chalet~! Althought it not quite the date that we wanted. It was a school day for me somemore. Slould I pon? Hungry when just think of the bone breaking chicken wing that JH promise me and the hotdog!

Dardar say he will buy me new bkini so that I can go and play water at the wild wild wet. Heehee, I love him and miss him so much now while he at work.

Went to IKEA and the courts megastore at Tampinese. It my first time there~ The whole place was huge...We walk till so tired. Haha, dardar and I both collapse after the long journey home. Love dardar hugging me and taking care of me but he like a child when he did not get enough sleep and keep whining at me. Small boy..Hees~

2009-04-15T09:03:00.000-07:00

I fall head over heels in love with dardar tonight again~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dardar suddenly told me he want to cook. Thought he was joking but he was serious~

Oh my god, there nothing in this world but a man who willing to cook for me to capture my heart. Got salted fish, bacon and young tao fu soup. I'm such a happy woman now. Lost count of the numvber of times I told him that I love him during the meal.

We agree to go NTUC shopping on friday and cook again on saturday! Soooo looking forward to it. =P

2009-04-14T03:30:00.001-07:00

My boi is OK~!!

So glad and relieved that everything is alright with him. So scared that he might hurt his back. Hmm...now worried about my Dad..I know I the apple in his eyes so all the more sad when I can't help him much. Will keep my Da sao sms to remind myself to work harder when school start. Am I giving myself too much pressure? Hope everything will be fine and the sunlight shone through the clouds again.

Saw from my email that I will be having day 8 as Sports Coaching. Yucks..but no choice. I hate sports. Guess it better to be done and over with first. I will certainly enjoy my 2 selective modules in my final year! Hopefully I can get what I want???

Dardar keep rubbing salt into my wound. Say he wana let me coach him. Grr.I really really hate sports. Sports don't suit me this lazy person at all. =P

Tune back soon~ Pics coming up next!

2009-04-13T16:58:00.001-07:00

Life have it ups and downs. I must accept that.

I'm lucky that I still have people loving me and supporting me. Will try to be strong from now on..I may still feel sad but I will try my best to move on with things. Time won't stop for me isn't?

Nervous about school. That for sure. But no matter what, I will still put in my best effort.

2009-04-09T05:59:00.000-07:00

Despite what I wrote yesterday, I did nothing today. Don't want to leave the house. Had a slight panic attach in the early morning.

F***, my head becoming heavy like before again and I had not much supply of medicine left. Wana cry but no tears came...Very very restless, other than sleeping, I don't know what else to do.

2009-04-08T06:20:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow gota be a busy day~

Need to be at NUH before 11a.m and must reach my workplace by 1 p.m. Jialat..Hope the traffic will be smooth and fast tomorrow. Don't wana waste money in taking cab..

Now watching the Channel 8 Ping Pong. Addition to the Geylang Rojah food poisoning, I wonder when will I get food poisoning so serious enough to need to be warded in hospital?

Remember I want a GET WELL SOON balloon, flowers plus teddy bear~

2009-04-07T06:15:00.000-07:00

Out with my family on Sunday. But for a while only..cos after eating, tummy pain again. SUX!!!

Monday working..So worried that I won't feel well again. There were this 2 kids outside the shop and running back and forth. Asked me what I want to eat cos they wana cook for me~ Sweet right. BTW, that the same boi who took all my sweets last time. Haha

Now Tuesday and I sat in front of my lappie. Still refusing to do my PP. No moltivation..Wana go to Orchard Tangs to buy lingerie, go Bugis for shopping..So restless arrrg.......

40% wana go out and be hyperactive while the rest of 60% wana just slack and rot.

2009-04-04T04:32:00.000-07:00

Dardar woke me up while I was flirting in my dreams wih Desmond Koh~!

Yes, that DJ cum host, that talented Desmond Koh!!!

Arrg...now I think I dehydrated. My skin like slowing peel off its first layer despite the amount of liquid I taking in. Dardar call me snake. I hate snake!!! >.<

2009-04-04T00:25:00.000-07:00

Now resting at dardar's living room, watching "Power Jackie!"

Yesterday say wana go watch Jackie Chan new movie but then both of us feeling lazy so stay in instead. AGAIN~~

Maybe see how tomorrow. Celebrating kor bithday tomorrow?

Must let my tummy rest today.

2009-04-02T22:00:00.000-07:00

Had a terrible terrible day yesterday.

Feeling very restless as school about to start very soon. Worried that I can't reach up to my parent's expectation and will quit halfway again...

Forced myself to woke up early to go to work. All was well. I even congratulate myself on looking so pretty. =P

Took MRT but halfway to my destination, stomach started to pain. What was I to do but go straight to work. Thought I can tahan through the day but then, I threw up or if you put it in another dusgusting way, is I vomited. Not once, not twice but keep it on going.

Message my boss to tell her I need someone to replace me...She said okay, a gal is coming to take over yet half an hour later, the gal say she cannot make it. Boss helped me to find another replacement but she can only made it at 5p.m. 2 more hours to wait??

Can't make it..so my boss let me go. I WAS SO GRATEFUL TO HER!!! I though she was going to ask me to wait a whole more or what but she just ask me to take care, locked the door and go. I lover her...seriously I do.

Think I will get carsick so I just took MRT back. Need less to say, I carried on with my throwing up in the MRT...Spoilt my image...How can a pretty gal do that in public? Believe me..I was too sick to care about that. In fact, I could give a reward to anyone that can made me feel better.

There was an Indian man beside me..Ask me to sit when there a seat available while the others just pretended not to see how awful I feel. When he was about to alight at JE, he even ask me whether I need help fom the control station or not..If not he scared I can't make it or faint. Sweet isn't? Not trying to be racist..but seldom Chinese do that. An auntie even moved away when I threw up in my plastic bag. But that uncle stayed by my side throught out his whole journey.

Asked dardar to wait for me at Poineer MRT. Thought like before, after I went to the toilet, took some medicine and all will be well again. My wisful thinging...Dardar brough me to see doctor and yea~ Have my first injection don't know after how many donkey years..

Tummy still hurt so much when I rested in dardar's house. Cry for dardar everytime it hurts. I really cry k..So painful. Wave after wave of neauous hit me each time my tummy pain. That stupid doctor...He did not make me feel any better at all leh..

Had a very restless night. All I can remember are nightmares and stomach too pain to lie down or even sit down. Woke up at 4+ a.m and finally feel a bit better. I can't believe how smelly I am. With all those sweats that company me last night, no wonder I feel and smell like a rubish bin.

Now now..Before you started to think and make wild guesses on what that silly gal had ate again to cause herself soooo much misery, I can tell you, Nothing~ Yes, nothing. No seafood the day before and I did not even ate anything, meaning I did not even put any food in my mouth but I just fall sick. The great mystery of 2009? =D

Dardar sms to me when he at work made me smile..He told me did I knew how worried he was for me yesterday? My parent called him for information about how I feel and dardar's mom made me porridge. Bliss~~

But then, it not so bliss to fall sick hor? =P

2009-03-30T14:09:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD!!!

IT BEEN SO FREAKING LONG SINCE I SAW SO MANY CLOTHES THAT I LIKE!!!!!

http://www.vogueinstyle.com/index.php?cPath=5000_5002&&page=1

Just check out their club wear...Totally AWESOME!
Anyone wana sponsor me? =P

2009-03-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh, dardar boxing me!!!

I box him back. Lalala~

I like this pic! Dardar so handsome under my camera!

I tease dardar that he look like a tourist in this pic.

He buay song and ask me to take another one for him. Hahaha

JH and QX En En Ai AI~ LOL

When the 3 of them around...Laughter always can be heard...

I must confess that as I type away now, I am feeling high and blur. It been like 36 hours since I get any sleep and I am still drinking HOOCH. Crazy?? Haha, I think I am...

Went out early in the morning to meet JH and QX to see to the booking of the chalet. Suppose to meet them at 8am one but dardar lor! Grr...so angry when I mentioned it. I change my outfit 5 to 6 times just because he say my spagatti is too revealing and insist on me wearing a tube inside. I don't want cos it so ugly. So change into another top. This one he also insist must wear tube inside again. We like stare at each othe for about an hour before I admit lost and change again. In the end, we find ourselves so stupid that we laugh at each other. Think my spagatti can be group into another top that can never see daylight liao...

Ate breakfast with JH & QX. Walk around JE then went to IMM to see dardar lappie. Till now, he still considering...That time ask him want PS3 or lappie, he say PS3. Now got PS3 liao he say he also want lappie. Greedy! But I got my dream boot at IMM!!! Hmm, can start wearing it to school. =P So chio~~

The jokes about TCH and T Chun Li made us laugh the whole day. Soo ooking forward to the chalet. I wana be the photographer and capture all the sleazy pictures!

QX went back to catch his bed bugs while JH went for his erm...call charity service? QX so ke lian..his whole hands were bitten red and swollen..Remind me of last time when I got bit also. Poor thing.. At last, Dardar and I went to VIVO. Dardar wanted to go home and sleep for a while before meeting them for dinner at 6.30 p.m again but I don't want...Change so many times, then dress so nice liao he ask me go home to sleep. *Faint*

But VIVO got nothing also...End up we catch the movie "12 Rounds". NICE!!! Very intense...It like die hard and Speed like that. Full of action and set your heart beating faster every scene. It been sooo long since we just enjoy the walk and relax to do everything.

Rush back to Chinese Garden for dinner. Stomach RUMBLING~~ Hungry Hungry. Eat while watching QX and JH lovingly feed one another. Hahaha, it was quite cheap also as QX knew the owner. Bought alcohol from Cheers and now here I am bloging away at dardar house while they play street fighter on PS3. Going to collapse any moment now~

2009-03-26T12:08:00.000-07:00

Went to have a haircut then met up with my boi at Jurong Point~

Love my new short fringe. The previous long one keep getting into my eyes. So irrating.

Second time get a guy to cut my hair. Hmm...except for his washing hair skills, overall not bad. He temp me to go dye my hair..Tell him I will SERIOUSLY consider but need to go as I late in meeting my mom.

Told my mom that I want to dye my hair. Ask her what colour is the best then she tell me, you young, don't waste money on dyeing. Black is the best. Ask dardar leh, he say he think black is the most suitable for me. Of course what, he only see me in black. >.< Lucky got Aza support me. Think I will give myself a treat in the later part of 2009~ What colour better leh???

Bought dardar dinner and found out that YanYan is back from her trip~ She bought me a Hello Kitty strap and Vitasoy~ LOL, I imagine her carrying the vitasoy all the way back to Singapore. She so sweet lor, so *si xin* to remember that I like drinking Vitasoy. Love the ManU Black windbreaker they bought for dardar. Very cool. Wana see him in it.

Honestly, I find her sweet that she always remember to bring someone a gift. I understand and hate the trouble of getting someone a present and scare that he don't like it at all. So I made it a point to treasure every gifts that people that for me, no matter what it is. Just the thought that she bought the drink, fly back to Singapore and carry it from Changi back to Jurong is more than enough to warm my heart.

Had a gals chat wit Emily and she told me she wanted to work full time. Hmm, jia you! More money, then you can go Taiwan and buy me *lu rou fan* Wahahaha, I going crazy again. Anyway, I decided to get the black lacy halter from her~ Hers is so much more cheaper than the previous site which I view at. Decided to risk it even though EmEm scare I can't wear.

With the exercise video clip that she got Clement to look for, will allow me to firm up one~ That is as long as I have the determination to do it then I can wear it liao. Hahhaha, Here the link to EmEm shop, hers is garantee the cheapest you can find: http://candybits.blogspot.com/

Time passes very fast..Few more weeks to school opening liao. Now start to slowly adjust my mindset. My dad very scare I will quit school. He kept telling me must *guai guai* go back to study if not next time very hard to find work one. Everytime I think of how he worry about me, I wana cry...He so old liao yet I still kept him worrying about me. But today Daddy was quite happy. He even show me a tiny mini skirt he say wana let the baby wear next time. Think Daddy is excited about his new coming soon grand daughter although he don't quite express it.

Kept thinking what to buy for the baby leh, everytime I wana buy, Mummy ask me not to waste money as Kor already have liao. Zzzz...Next coming month must go shop around. I want the little cutie to have one special item from her pretty aunt. Hehehe.

2009-03-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

Dardar fall sick today. Sms me in the noon and told me he having a fever.

Haiz..My dad ask me why he so weak? Always sick one. I don't know how to answer so I just smile.

Ate lunch and dinner all by myself today. Very lonely.

Wonder when can dardar bring me go gaigai???

2009-03-23T06:46:00.000-07:00

Feeling very restless...Wana go out and play

Hate feeling like this. That when I'm think that the world is always greener on the other side.

Start to feel unhappy with whatever I have now. Can't I realise how lucky I am?

Snappy at dardar whenever I in this kind of mood.

Must control myself cannot spend any more money till wednesday!

Xhong Xhang BBQ Sux...

2009-03-22T10:16:00.000-07:00

CaoCao lose to a cup of tea...Wahahaha

Best Buddy Award 2009

Say Cheesze~

Just for laugh & happy memories

JH special creation..Hmm..wondering what he actually trying to create.

Can ya see the cutie face???

A guy looking serious is the most handsome side of him.

Love the scrambled egg JH cooked for me!!!

1st time taking pic in cab.

WHat this?! My sexy leg~~ Dardar laugh when I showed him this pic. That funny meh? I seldom wear dress ma

Looking very very VERY stiff

WOW!

Out with JH & Dardar today. Drag both of them to Bugis to company me shopping. Woo hoo, retail theraphy worked wonders for me. Smiling happily when we left the place. Love getting opinions from the 2 man. Just love shopping with them~ They won't show any black face at me even if I took too long to decide what I want.

Anyway, everyhing is like 1 for $10. See liao, everything is like caling me to buy them home. One con is that cannot try. Knowing my own body...it a huge risk I have to take when going for such bargains lor. Sure enough, I bought 4 tops and 1 jacket. One of them I can't even get it over my head. 2 of them fitted just nice enough but dardar insist, nag and order me to wear a tube top or jacket if I ever wear them out. >.<

Last one was lovely but dardar say it only for his eyes...Wp...I wasted $15 bucks just for his eyes only? Lucky I can see that he really can't keep his eyes off me and he said I am soo sexy~ Figure too good liao thus he must protect me. Hehehe, I'm flying high into the air liao.

Next target is to shop at Vivo and buy a pair of boot! Yes, I want a black boot with heels. Anyone know where got sell cheap cheap one? Is my budget $40 too little? Or maybe I should go look at Lucky Plaza? Anyone wana company me go? Hmm...Wana buy before school reopen next month.

Next stop is Turf City for BBQ steamboat. Sux...no fish! Their webbie lie one. No fish put fish there. Food variety was so little as well. Think we were having more fun playing with the food rather than eating the food.

As the only lady, I sat throughout the entire dinner and got people cooked for me. Hehehe, that why I love being the only female in a guy gang. Got special benefits one. Always feel pampered and treated like a princess.

Noted: The guys must also be entleman enough too take care ofthe lovely ladies.

If JH, you are looking at this post hor..I wana confess that the soup taste so sour is only because I put one whole spoon of vinegar in it. Not cos of the salted veggie~

Was rushing for the bus so JH put his cup of tea on the seat. Then a innocent young guy go and sit on it! OMG...He looked like he piss on his pants wor..So ke lian while the culprit smile happily at me.

We are going to look at chalet booing on next coming saturday~ I promise I will take lot and LOTS of pictures when the time comes. I get so excited now just to think of it! 3 days full of fun and laugher surrounded by good friends. Plus a new swimsuit promised by papa~

Papa love Baby..Baby love Papa~~

2009-03-18T09:29:00.000-07:00

Lynuz aka JC keep complaning to me no photos..Haha so just take some randomly while at work today. Rested for 2 WHOLE weeks and finally get my engine working again today. Luckily time seem to pass very fast today. =D

2009-03-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

MANU LOSE TO LIVERPOOL !!!

Score: 1-4

Was running a fever when I woke up today. Feel so weak. Stomach very pain also.

Feel like throwing up after my lunch so let dardar take me to see the doctor.

Should have known better then to take a second mouth of that oyster...

Stupid me, so careless when dardar is not there to take care of me and remind me

2009-03-13T10:41:00.000-07:00

Been having diarrhea for three days straight.

Really wonder how can I not see a doctor through these days.

Today was feeling slightly better but still can hear the contents of my tummy, eg my small and big intestines churning like a washing machine.

I'm so gross. =D

2009-03-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

We were pretty loving when he booked out from the camp this afternoon.

Had a big smile plastered on my face the whole time while he kissed me and hold my hand tightly.

7 hours had passed and he casting all his attentions on his beloved PS3 and soccer now liao.

Feel so lonely and ignored..Haiz...Which part of me lost to a bulky black box???

*BIG BIG BIG POUT*

At least I know what I want now. But does he?

Hmmmm....~~

2009-03-05T07:33:00.000-08:00

Feeling kind of sad...

2009-03-03T04:07:00.000-08:00

Was sufting the net and found this!!!

http://wardrobe54.com/product_info.php?cPath=11_12&products_id=1066

Asked JC whether it nice or not and his answer made me smile.

"Fantastically nice" Hehe, he wanted me to get it but I scare my tummy too round to wear it. =P

But very nice right? Think is the model too sexy..

I like this kind of clothes but don't dare to wear it. Think dardar won't even let me buy. Hahaha.

Thinks big boobs and small eyes are my significant features cos even my customers at the store tease me about it.

Hmm..think this may be my last post for this week cos dardar going to reservists soon...Want him to faster come out then can go BBQ steamboat with Alvin! Yea...Hungry hungry hungry.

Keep myself busy working~

2009-03-02T05:40:00.000-08:00

Woo, althought yesterday was a sunday with little crowd but I still up my sales~

Legs were aching by the time I get home..Need tender loving massage from dardar~~

Seriously thinking of getting the OSIM massage machine.

2009-02-25T12:26:00.000-08:00

Guess what? I just had the most super werid dream...

I was at my grandma's house with my family eating while suddenly I looked at the clock. It was 10.30p.m.

I ran around the house shouting at my relatives...

"What day is it today?? It monday right???"

Then I cried and told my Dad to faster drive me home...The latest must reach home by 11.30p.m.

So that.....

I can get to finish my RJ and submit before midnight. >.<

Guess school is really getting to me. Hahahahaha

2009-02-24T11:54:00.000-08:00

Find out that it been a long time since I posted any post with my pictures?

Hmm..When work is busy, the time passes faster and even seem fun to be running about.

But when there no crowd, the boredom can really kill me.

Can really sense that the economic is so bad now since nobody is spending much on food and clothes.

Dread going to work nowadays...Tell myself must look on the positive side, think of MONEY!!!

Anyway, it only 1 more month before I need to quit for school..

Just find more people to sms while working~

2009-02-23T17:05:00.001-08:00

Okay, first, I got nothing against blonde and this is taken once again from Sgforum posted by eagle.

A blonde called her boyfriend and said, "Please come over here and help me. I have a killer jigsaw puzzle, and I can't figure it out or how to get it started." Her boyfriend asked, "What is it supposed to be when it's finished?" The blonde said, "According to the picture on the box, it's a tiger." Her boyfriend decided to go over and help with the puzzle. She let him in and showed him where she had the puzzle spread all over the table. He studied the pieces for a moment, looked at the box, then turned to her and said, "First of all, no matter what we do, we're not going to be able to assemble these pieces into anything resembling a tiger." He took her hand and said, "Second, I want you to relax. Let's have a nice cup of hot chocolate and then............," he sighed, ..... "Let's put all of these frosted flakes back into the box."

2009-02-23T16:58:00.000-08:00

Saw this joke on Sgforum by Chocochips! Damn funny!!!

A blonde had just gotten a new sports car and was out for a drive when she cut off a truck driver.

He motioned for her to pull over. When she did, he got out of his truck and pulled a piece of chalk from his pocket. He drew a circle on the road and told the blonde, "Stand in the circle and don't move!"

He then went to her car and cut up her leather seats. When he turned around, she had a slight grin on her face, so he said, "Oh, you think that's funny? Watch this." He gets a baseball bat out of his truck and breaks every window in her car.

When he turns and looks at her she has a smile on her face. He is getting really mad. He gets his knife back out and slices all her tires.

Now she's laughing.The truck driver is really starting to lose it. He goes back to his truck and gets a can of gas, pours it on her car and sets it on fire. He turns around and she is laughing so hard she is about to fall down."What's so funny?" the truck driver asked the blonde.

She replied, "When you weren't looking I stepped outside the circle four times."

2009-02-23T15:56:00.000-08:00

So happy that my Dad will fetch me after work without fail everytime. He is even so sweet to the extend that he will prepare a cold drink for me on his van. I always feel so thirtsy after work. =D He made me feel so pampered~

Went to JB on Saturday with JH and Dardar. Planning for another steamboat treat.

It been so long since I had laugh till that loud. Dardar and JH 17 years of buddy relationships really like can withstand everything. Anyway, I bought a tube top that able to go with my another top! Just don't know when got chance to wear it out only...Got so many clothes that I wana wear out but dardar and I seem to seldom go on *hot n romantic* dates anymore. No motivaton to make up. Lol...Truth is I'm just being lazy? Plus dardar don't really like me to attrach so many atention also...Hmm...but that how I dress?

My colleague even asked me the other day whether do I have any boyfriend and did we ever quarrel over my dressin style. Hahaha, I will just say that dardar sometimes don't exactly agree with what I want to wear..Give and take lor..I must admit that I did change for him a bit in everything.

The thing is I can't stand wearing T-shirt everyday! Every gal dream to be able to wear all kind of clothes and be pretty in it what..Who wana look the same everyday??? Also, I don't like clothes to cling on my skin when I'm sweating. Hey, this is Singapore and it getting hotter every year. Don't tell me you feel good wrapping yourself up like a dumpling? I can't..In fact, I get heat rash easily. I'm like a coldblooded animal. While everyone at my workplace is dressed up in long sleeve and cardigian, I am just wearing a simple spagetti top and shorts.

Okay, let face the truth. A spagetti will look okay and DECENT on another gal but once it on me, the effect is different lor. People will start to have other thoughts...Please lor, my body is not what I can control, my dressing style may be like that but I ASOBLUTELY HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SEE ME AND THINK THAT I"M A VERY LOOSE AND EASY GOING GAL.

You can't guess the number of times strangers asked me for sexual activities..

Just the other day, the gals crowd around talking and they say my my lower half body is actually quite slim..Only that my boobs and arms are HUGE thus making me look fat. Should I be happy or glad? >.<

Then they made a special request..They wana touch my boobs. Hahhah, they remind me of Darling Caiwei and Lynn back in the old days. They keep on saying I got "Z" cup. LOL..Not that huge lar..

I am happy with my body..althought I think I'm FAT. When there pros, there always the cons..For example, I may look good in deep V clothes but I can't wear shirt or anything with buttons. It can't suit me and look so terrible. That made one of the reason why I can't work as a admin also. Hahahha.

I kept having friends especially from guys telling me that I am not fat at all but somehow, I can't bring myself to believe it. Any reader of mine wana comment and help me find the truth?? =P

Fat, not fat, Fat, not fat, Fat, not fat. =D

2009-02-19T09:46:00.000-08:00

Working tomorrow~ Must sleep early after this post.

Money spent like water. Is there any repairman to help me fix the spoilt tap??

Shall blog more~

2009-02-18T13:48:00.000-08:00

Can't sleep now so watching movie on my lappie.

Watched the horror thai movie "Dorm" for 15 minuties. confirm it too scary to watch on my own so switch to Bridal Wars.

Going to NUH exactly 4 hours later.

Acheivement of the day is I had finally settle on my "tissue clothes". Now I shudder in horror at the sight of any tissue paper.

Feeling kind of lonely again. Up and down period?

Wonder how Emily is doing up at genting..

Wonder how can I cope when there no more Yuqi to company me to walk to MRT..

Wonder how Jess and Caiwei darling doing now...

Wonder how lynn and her baby are doing...

Received a message in friendster. Asked me how many flowers did I receive during Valentine..Haha, I not that popular to receive many many flowers..Till now, dardar is the one and only who send me flowers before.

Think that how he woo my heart. I a sofie when it comes to romance, flowers and small little presents. =

2009-02-17T06:00:00.000-08:00

Had another very cute conversation with one of the stranger on my MSN list.

He messaged me right away when I log in. Here how it goes~

boy says: i want eat u!

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: alot of fats n bones

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: not nice to eat

boy says: i dun mind!

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: haha u r cute

boy says: so let me eat u ba!

boy says: ok?

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: y u wan eat me...then i pain pain when u bite me

boy says: i will bite soft soft..

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: still bite leh...

boy says: i will lick 1st..make u feel good..den bite..and release

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: still in the end i will still pain...

boy says: wont la..promies u wont pain..

boy says: when my teeth feel yr skin..i will release..

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: ...

boy says: okay ma..

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: dun like u eat me la

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: i eat u can?

paddie 我是历害小笨蛋！！！ says: i bbq u first

boy says: can la np

boy says: we eat other..

boy says: but i still virgin..

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I find it very cute n funi. =D

2009-02-15T04:43:00.000-08:00

Did anything bad happen to you on friday the 13th?

Hmm...I did not slept the whole day then went out with dardar super early to Ngee Ann Tower for training.

The orchard road at 8 a.m early in the morning is deserted. Bus and people moved slowly along the road lke they have not woke up fully.

Reached the office before the appointment time, 8.30 a.m. But they drag drag drag till 9 + then start the briefing. They repeated everything like 5 to 6 times during the whole 5 hours briefing. >.<~~ Was so frustrated when finally everything get to finish up. Arrrg......Super duper regret going at all. This was the first admin training that I went to and it totally sux! This only deepen my hated for admin job. Wahaha. Lucky I only help standby for one week. But I must admit that it pays very well. At least better than my retail job~

Dardar actually say we would go celebrate Valentine beforehand after the briefing...but think as the both of us did not sleep at all the day before + the stupid training, it made us very hot tempered and we had sort of a little tiff...Haiz..so I just made dardar bought $10 worth of bread, yes bread ~ to vent out my anger and went back to Jurong Point to eat then go back to sleep.

Told dardar not to speak to me after he had enough sleep. Refused to say the words *Hapi Valentine* to him when it struck midnight. =P

Only willingly to speak the words to him the next afternoon. No celebrations, no flowers, nothing but I think it is more of a day to remind yourself that you have someone loving you rather than expecting too much out of your love ones. I think back of all the years we have been together and what he had did for me. That is more than enough to fill my hearts full with his love.

I love you dardar...

Went to work thinking that I will see a lot of couples that day but to my surprise, mostly all gals outing to shop together. Think I did quite okay for the day. =D One of my colleague even received 2 bouquet of flowers! If I must be honest...Hmm..abit envy. Hehe.

However, the most wonderful thing is seeing dardar and my family there to have late dinner with me after my work~!

Working longer hours starting from next week onwards. Will be more tired..Must rememer to change my doctor's appoitment time tomorrow~